b as in beirut

ب كما في بيروت

Where do you meet guys?

The title might make me sound desperate, but that’s not the case.
I hear many stories about relationship breakups and how much it hurts in addition to hearing about relationships come together which is something very nice.
Where do you meet guys?

How do you meet them?


How do you approach them?

I find it weird that many other guys pick up guys like they pick up food from bliss street. Many options.
Where I feel like they really do not exist.
Is there a code or a special place? 
Beirut boy, I’m counting on you.
Guys lemme know your opinions.



Round and Round.

Call me from work. Tell me get ready. Wipe the grease off your hands. Pick me up In your 80’s mercedes. Drive me round and round Beirut. Hold my hand, place it on the gear stick with your hand over mine. Apologize for not shaving your beard. Shift the gear to D and drive me round and round Beirut. Kiss my cheek at every red traffic light. Kiss my neck at every red traffic light. Safe. Tell me you’ll take me back home for all the right reasons. Take me back home. Carry me and throw me on your bed. Sit on the ground. Hold my hand and kiss it. Tell me how much this moment means to you. Lean your head on my knee. Tell me you’ll only make love to me for me. My pleasure. Stand up. Kiss my forehead. Tear off my clothes. Leave my virginity. Leave me naked. Leave your clothes on and sleep over me. Rest your head like an infant on my chest. Tell me you’re home now. Cry on my chest. I study your head. Your hair. Your scalp. Your ears. Your skin. I stare into your infinity. Before you shut your eyes asleep, promise me you’ll keep me warm forever.tumblr_m9t7nkSKbQ1ql5dqto1_250


After reading the last post by Ali on http://www.homoslibnani.wordpress.com I decided to write this post. This last month I was also going out on dates to meet new people. Date number one is a nurse and is overly obsessed about his health. Date number two is only interested in sex. Date number 3 who I was out with last night, answers to sex calls two hours after he meets the person on grindr or whatever, and according to him, 2 hours are enough, not to mention that he is into everything, “guys”, “girls”, “cows”..you name it. So today I finally decided to stop communicating with these 3 guys so I broadcasted a message claiming that I changed my number and will message them my new number once I get it. Its either that I have high expectations or every guy out there is simply like that. Image

No strings attached.

up-in-the-air-title-still-04I was thinking the other day about what I really want. I always tell myself I want a real relationship and something serious. I’m starting to doubt there is such a thing..but truthfully most of the time I feel like I don’t want to get attached. I want to be independent but committed at the same time ( mafsoom? ) I think some us feel that way. I feel that relationships always make us compromise and I would hate that. If you watched the movie Up in the air starring George Clooney you would understand.
I’ll leave you with a quote from the movie and of course would love your opinions.

“How much does your life weigh? Imagine for a second that you’re carrying a backpack. I want you to pack it with all the stuff that you have in your life… you start with the little things. The shelves, the drawers, the knickknacks, then you start adding larger stuff. Clothes, tabletop appliances, lamps, your TV… the backpack should be getting pretty heavy now. You go bigger. Your couch, your car, your home… I want you to stuff it all into that backpack. Now I want you to fill it with people. Start with casual acquaintances, friends of friends, folks around the office… and then you move into the people you trust with your most intimate secrets. Your brothers, your sisters, your children, your parents and finally your husband, your wife, your boyfriend, your girlfriend. You get them into that backpack, feel the weight of that bag. Make no mistake your relationships are the heaviest components in your life. All those negotiations and arguments and secrets, the compromises. The slower we move the faster we die. Make no mistake, moving is living. Some animals were meant to carry each other to live symbiotically over a lifetime. Star crossed lovers, monogamous swans. We are not swans. We are sharks.”

Random Thoughts

Being the smart studious guy, I always found myself with this older bad boy fantasy. I really don’t know why I keep looking for such guys, but what’s disappointing is most of these bad boys are up for sex only which is sad.

Put politics aside, let’s talk about Shiaa men. They are adorable. The perfect fantasy!
Is it weird to find yourself attracted to guys from a certain religion? I’m not sure. I find it attractive when a guy is called Hassan, Ali or Hussein. 

Let’s talk about Grindr.
I downloaded it for the first time a week ago and deleted it the next day. No one talks unless you start the conversation which usually ends because you can’t really converse with someone on it. It’s hard, you lose interest. Most guys are also up for sex only. What happened to the decency? What happened to respecting each other? We are so concentrated on sex it’s unbelievable. Seriously, if you break it down, most of us want a good decent guy to able to share things with, talk about our daily experiences and most importantly respect each other. 
Tell me your thoughts guys.


On Saturday at night, around 11 pm I decided to go to PC to have some fun. This was my 3rd  time attending PC.
For those who don’t know what PC is; it’s a party with a different theme every time and is mostly for the gay community in Beirut.  is a nice party for people to “have fun”. You find guys making out with their boyfriends and same applies for lesbian girls including many other straight couples too. The thing that I find weird is some people go to PC just to make out with 4-5 strangers. Don’t get me wrong, who doesn’t like having fun, but I think if every person kisses 4-5 people then by the end of the party, all the germs and the saliva from all the people there end up in your mouth not to mention some serious diseases like MONO which is caught through kissing. In addition to this, I think the party is somehow not as good as it was because it has become so “pornographic” and I think I saw the same people that I saw when I first went for the first time back in May 2012 (Pekin’s Chaos).
What do you guys think? Image

B as in Being.

Born and raised outside Lebanon, last year I decided to attend university in Beirut. Just a regular 19 years old guy who enjoys swimming and volleyball. Most of my time is dedicated to university work but I manage to go out every once in a while. On the outside I’m the person you joke with and have fun with but since I came back to Beirut, I started this double life. I am a closeted 19 years old gay guy. I think most Beirut has allowed me to liberate some  of my character but it still remains difficult to come out. I think in a way I don’t want to come out as I feel it’s a sign of weakness. People’s expectations and being “straight” to the public helps you maintain this strong character but at the same time you live a lie. Go back home, turn on the laptop, check what http://www.guymeetsworld.wordpress.com has posted, what http://www.homoslibnani.wordpress.com had to say this time. In a way, there posts make me feel that I’m living between them, but I still don’t know what the gay life is, how it works, what are the rules? I guess it’s a huge world, and all you have to do is wait to accidentally find some one that can embrace you. It’s just confusing. Till what point can we handle being alone? Alone in a city that is foreign to you, and your people are different from you. How can you be gay and hate the lifestyle? How can you meet someone if you never attend their parties, live their life? How do you not end up going to bardo for the first time, stand outside and be too scared to go in coz you don’t know what’s inside or how to interact? so you just decide to walk back home after hoping you’d go in and meet some one.